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YOM KIPPUR
I Marvel and Wonder
By Russell A. Irving
Every year, when the High Holy Days come, I marvel. That G_d has blessed me with another year in the Book of Life. That despite not being all of the man, the Jew, husband, father, and member of the world's community, that I should have been, G_d blessed me.
There are days and nights when things are going well that I marvel at the joys which I am witness to. Acts of kindness. A smile on my familiy's faces. A 'Thank you' for something that I did for another person. Then, there are the nights when I lie awake for hours contemplating the many misfortunes that my family endures. I find myself angry with G_d. Wanting to ask: "Am I that bad of a person? Do I deserve these tragedies in my life? And, if I do, why punish my loved ones who are wonderful people, good people?" There are times when I do things to 'spite' G_d. (As if I had such power!) And, then, there are the days when I find myself brought to tears, when I pray to G_d to watch over and heal my family and friends. When I pray that there will be true peace in this world. When I hope that all of us will seek G_d and follow His teachings.
Yes, I marvel at there having been another year for me on this earth. Another year has gone by and this imperfect man looks back upon the decades of my life. I do feel sadness and anger and disappointment for what I did not live up to being. The desire is there to repent. The desire, however, I fear, is not sufficient. It with actions that G_d sees us for who we are. It is with our speaking up when we see injustice. It is when we help another and truly want nothing from them. It is when we actually spend time with our loved ones and not make them feel badly that we have done so.
I find myself, this year, as with so many other years, kneeling before G_d at the gates that lead somone whom He has inscribed in the Book of Life, into another year. I pray that He shows mercy and understanding. That He will hold my hand when I am afraid, comfort me when I am sad, and correct me when I do wrong. That I will again be able to marvel at His geat love for His people and all of us, individually. I wonder, as I write these thoughts, if this is what G_d seeks: True introspection. True regret for our transgressions, both large and small. And a sincere desire to do better. And, not perfection. I pray that G_d will bless each of You, as well!
May G_d look lovingly upon us all and inscribe us for another year in the Book of Life. A good year.
Amen.
Repentence Is Much More Than...
By Russell A. Irving
"You are unique! You deserve the best in life. You will succeed." Many of us heard some or all of these growing up. Yet, many of us did not. So, who ultimately is the the most successful individual? The question should be: Who is worthy of a great life?
While there are great men, famous and not-so-much-so, there are others who appear to succeed in life, but who arrived there on the backs of others. Those who care more about absolute power and wealth, The ones who justify all of their actions regardless of whom gets hurt.
I think back to when I owned a store and a fellow came in and said that he had a question of me. That my answer would determine whether or not he purchased anything at my establishment. He asked if I accepted anothet religion's beliefs. When I said "No", he explained that he would not buy from me. Knowing that I would not change his mind, I asked what of the drug dealer who beat his children and cheated on his wife? Would he be looked on favorably by G_d? The man responded by saying that if he sought forgiveness and believed in this religion's core beliefs, even if only on his deathbed, then G_d would in fact forgive him. But the man who led a great, unselfish life, who did not believe in this faith would be doomed, eternally by G_d. -- I mention this not to pick on any other religion, because people tend to believe what they are taught as children. I mention this because we tend to believe that G_d will forgive us, no matter what we say or do.
On Yom Kippur, we seek G_d's forgiveness. We ask that our vows made during the year and on Yom Kippur be dismissed. That we certainly will try to do what is right, but we're 'only human'.
There are examples in the Bible of those who were punished for various actions. Even great figures, such as Moses, who was not allowed into the Promised Land. Perhaps, it is one thing for us to seek forgiveness, and promise to do better, next time, but that does not mean that G_d will automatically forgive us. Or that there will not be consequences to our actions, even if G_d forgives us.
This is my way of saying that life is a day-by-day, minute-by-minute, experience. There might not be a tomorrow or another Kol Nidre service for us to partake in. Repentence is much more than a way to get a 'free pass' for our behaviors. 'Repentence' must carry more than 'sincerity' along with it. There must be true intent, followed by great efforts. So, when you seek forgiveness and G_d's blessings, realize that He knows what is in your heart and your ability to carry out promises, at any one point in time. We ask G_d to inscribe us in the Book of Life, because, deep down inside, we know that it is not 'a given'.
Bottom-line: Act everyday as if it could be your last one. Treat others knowing that G_d is always watching. Know that 'talk' is cheap. Make your words of repentance be meaningful ones. -- May G_d find your words and your heart sincere and open to change, to following His commandments, and to give more than lip-service to your prayers and promises.
Amen.
Kol Nidre www.youtube.com/v/dSzCJh4Pq8I?version=3&hl=en_US
Not For Ourselves, Alone Once again, we are at this holy day. Once again, we decide whether or not to make the time, take the time for prayer. For seeking forgiveness. For being repentent. For remembering those who have passed. For asking G_d for blessings. We show reverance for G_d. Thanks for His blessings. Hope for life renewed. We pray for the day when there will be an end to pestilence, war, and hatred. Studies claim that most of us are a heartbeat away from poverty. Homelessness. Sickness that we cannot afford to treat. Stomach pains from a lack of food. Cold for a lack of heat or faintness from too much. There is the legend that says a wealthy man sought to give up food and other signs of his abundance for the Day of Atonement, in order to show others that he can relate with their great needs.That these actions would win favor with G_d and guarantee His inscription for a good and healthy year, in the Book of Life. -- Yet, his rabbi cautioned him not to do this. - "Why?" asked this man of great wealth. - The rabbi responded by saying, "That for you to make such sacrifices for one day belittles what others endure, day by day. For it is one thing to make what amounts to a token gesture. Quite another for one to live it, every day of your life. This is not to say that you should refrain from fasting or do what you are expected to do this day. Simply do not believe that these sacrifices are anywhere equal to what your fellow citizen endures." If that rabbi were alive today, he might remind this man that we were once all immigrants. That anti-semitism is on the rise, worldwide. That the gap, even in America between the wealthy and poor is ever-widening. That we act as if everything on the Internet is true, simply because it was there. That we can let blind prejudice overrule what our souls would never do, if we truly examined our inner being. That there is good and bad in every group: every race, religion, sexual gender, and nationality. This Day of Repentance should include feelings of guilt for our inactions and sometimes our very actions toward our fellow children of G_d. I believe that G_d hopes we will look not only inward or outward to our immediate family, but also, outward to those around us, living next to us. Who live daily in fear, with an over powering sense of helplessness, and a sense of hopelessness. May G_d inscribe you in the Book of Life for a good, healthy, and caring about & for others, year. Amen.
What If I Confess That I Am 'Just Not Into Repenting'? Yom Kippur is very much a time for confessions. Whether they be for grave sins or simply slights, the fact remains that we should seek to atone. We should choose to ask forgiveness in an effort to apologize, to acknowledge what we have done. But what happens when we 'don't feel it'. The latter is simply an excuse. For this is a time for inward reflection. As parents tell children, 'You need to just do it. get it done.' It would depend. There are times when we are not 'in the mood' to make love or play with our children or visit our elderly parents.. Yet, once we are in the act, we find ourselves getting caught-up in the activity. We forget our inhibitions, our sense of unwillingness to participate in the event. Let your reasons for not making the most of these days, the Days of Repentance, melt away. May we find forgiveness from others, from ourselves, and, ultimately, from G_d. May you and yours be inscribed for a good year, in the Book of Life. Amen.
We Don't Seem To 'Get It'
How often does someone present us with information that we either take for granted or choose to dismiss, out of hand? Now, far be it from me to suggest that we need to take precious moments out of our day to verify information. Psychologists have a term for this, but who needs psychobabble? Certainly, not us! We pray for the well-being of our community, our country, and our world. Yet, do we even review, during Aseret Yemei Teshuva, how our words and actions have not been in their best interest? Unfortunately, we center too much on ourselves and our family and friends.
There is a difference between opinion and fact. G_d has blessed us with the ability to reason and think, freely. This comes with a responsibility, however. To perform 'due diligence'. To at least, occasionally, think of 'what is righteous'. We have an obligation to value these gifts. We have a calling to repent for pre-judging others. To repent for our prejudices. To repent for gross generalizations. To take an active part, such as time allows, in helping our community, locally and globally, to treat each person with respect and seek peace. To help the homeless, instead of driving by them, while rolling up our car windows. And, much more...
Repentence is not something to give lip-service to. Do we truly believe that G_d does not see through that? Everyone of us has an obligation to act as a beacon, shining the way to the One True G_d. And to fulfill his hopes for us.
Let us not pretend that this does not matter. Because it does. And may we ask G_d for forgiveness for these more 'global' sins. And may He grant us a year of health, happiness, and inner peace.
Amen.
Do We Miss The Point? "But, it feels good!" Yet, the reality is that we value our goals, our pleasures, over any discomfort, pain, or misfortune that would likely befall another person. So it is that during the Days of Repentance we ask G_d for forgiveness. But, probably do not ask it of those whom we have wronged. We rationalize that by avoiding embarrassment, admission of guilt for actions which the other person might not have been aware, and feeling uncomfortable, we are not really harming anyone, to any great extent. All that might be true. Yet, we are harming ourselves. By deceit. By pretending to be repentant. By convincing ourselves that G_d will be fooled by our token gestures of regret for past transgressions. That G_d will not somehow punish us for our acts of false apologies. Do we actually believe that G_d does not know what is in our hearts? That He does not know when we simply go through the motions of asking Him or those whom we wronged for forgiveness? We miss the point of the Days of Repentance when we trust that G_d will accept token gestures that do not even cost us a moment of discomfort. It is the sincere heart that is willing to put itself out for a true apology that G_d seeks. Are we expected to go to everyone whom we have wronged and ask for forgiveness? Perhaps not. But a combination of a sincerely repentant heart combined with actions that are probably not comfortable which I believe that G_d looks for when He is determining our place during the new year. Amen.
Special For Yom Kippur -- “Oh My, Rabbi! I just learned that today begins Yom Kippur! I need tickets! What time are services? You have services both tonight and tomorrow? Really? How much time do I really have to be there to make it count?” You know, I get to have lots of these types of conversations with folks at this season. My colleagues have been recounting, on our listserv, many of the conversations brought to them this week. If one did not have perspective, these could be downright disheartening. So and so has an event where a whole team is counting on him to show up. Another is waiting for evidence that the building has been checked for Ebola. Another has to choose between a step-child’s birthday party and the morning service. Yes, it is easy to get exasperated. So many colleagues succumb to this temptation, but … call me polyanna-ish … I have to wonder why these people asked or said anything about the day. Why would they take the time to ask, even the inane question, when if they were really disinterested all they have to do is not show up? Are they really that dense? Are they really expecting our blessing? You know the joke, a man goes to the rabbi and reminds the rabbi that kickoff for the big football game is during Yom Kippur services. “Rabbi, is it ok to video tape on Yom Kippur?” The rabbi says, that under the circumstances, it is, so long as he sets up the night before. The man responded, “Where in the sanctuary can I set up the camera?” What I hear in these questions is a concern for the importance of the holiday. Maybe people don’t know what to do with the day. Maybe people don’t understand the full extent of the Holiday’s importance. Maybe we should not be so dismissive of those who present their questions in strange ways. In a small southern Jewish community, a synagogue tried doing educational outreach. Every year (for about a decade), they set up their social hall with tables properly dressed for each holiday on the calendar. They would then welcome their non-Jewish neighbors in and share an educational experience on the meaning of each celebration. One night, in the midst of one such discussion, a guest who had been to many of these events asked a question, “How do you account for the Jews having killed Jesus?” The host was so upset that they shut the event down and had everyone leave. As the recounted the story to me, years later, the synagogue members were proud of how they stood up to the hatred. I asked if they knew the person who questioned them. They affirmed. I asked if there had ever been cause to believe that this person was a hater? They admitted that there has been none. I suggested that perhaps the person had been plagued by this question for years, since they knew lots of “nice Jews,” and the accusations had made no sense, but they had no one that they felt close enough to ask … until this show of welcome. Now, having been thrown out, there is no telling what they thought! The day after my Bar Mitzvah, the rabbi threw me out of “his” synagogue. I did not see God the same way he did, so in his eyes I must have been wrong. Obviously, it never dawned him … even if I was way off base … to have conversations with me to see whether or not there were things upon which we could agree. Maybe we should not be so dismissive of people who present their questions in strange ways. Yom Kippur is a day for us to come to grips with reality--I think that we need to judge less and listen more … and listen with more openness and compassion. If we really believe that the world is worth saving, then we have to begin by believing that people really do want to do the right thing, even if they have no clue how to do it. To the people who ask the tough questions, I want to thank them for being concerned. I want to ask them to be with us for any part of the day, and hope that the time that they are here makes them want to come back for more. (For the videotaping guy, I hope he watches the service when it fits his schedule and gets something out of it.) I am not watering down faith, but I will not destroy it by turning people away on account of their own ignorance. The real world teaches us that a lot of people lost touch with tradition over the years. I can assure you that faith will never have value if, even in their twisted way of approaching a return, they get turned away. Perhaps if more of us were more patient and engaging with each other, the day would have greater value for more people. In fact, if we treated everyday with more awareness and more grace towards each other, every day would provide greater cause for celebration. Shabbat Shalom and … well, I can’t say “Happy Yom Kippur,” but I can pray that the day brings hope and healing for us all. Rabbi Marc A. Kline
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